The last few weeks did not go completely as expected. My grandfather getting really sick and having to stay in the hospital was a very unfortunate turn of events that was really hard on my family, especially my parents. It really sucked that we did not get to do one more family-bonding experience or trip. I feel like I hardly saw them at all. Now I'm leaving the country, my sister left for college, and it's just my parents. It's crazy how fast things can change.I have all my belongings for four months packed in my backpacking bag and a small suitcase. I still feel like I could have done with a lot less, but in my frantic-and-panicked state of mind I threw in a couple extras that I'm sure I'll regret.
In 12 hours I will be boarding a plane for an indirect flight to Los Angeles, then wait six hours or so in the international terminal and around midnight I'll be flying to Auckland! I've been going through a flurry of emotions the past few days; from excited to nervous to anxious to downright depressed. I keep telling myself to pull it together because I have a feeling that once I get there I'll be in love. A part of me worries that the country might suit me so well that I might not want to come back. I know I will miss everyone a lot, but I'm hoping that all the fun and new experiences will distract me from my homesickness.
"Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity."
Here goes nothing!
